..it goes alll the way back to high school. oh brand new. i can't wait till you come out with an album this year haha
this is a lesson of procrastination. i kill myself because i'm so frustrated and every single second that i put it off, means another lonely night i gotta race the clock
of course im not gonna kill myself haha like i said, this was from high school. but its been with me because i always procrastinate haha.
i have a 4-5 essay due tomorrow. i started it tonight...and i dont think i'm sleeping tonight.
anyways, i woke up (after having a really weird/awkward/sad/embarrassing dream. let me tell you now that this is normal for my dreams. and they usually relate to whats happening in my life. do i have the power to dream the future? no..of course not haha. but do they usually relate to my/my friends' current situation. yes haha) and had this great idea.
when the new year came, i told myself my resolution should be to communicate with people better cause i totally suck and i'm shy and i have thing for people's privacy haha. so i decided, to leave my comfort zone by 2 miles...why 2? you'll see haha. ok so i figured, i should reallyy try to have one-to-ones with at least 2 people once a month haha. oh gosh. if you know me, one-to-one's isn't my thing haha. im so scared. you have no idea haha but i feel like i should do this haha
ok that's all haha. idk if people really wanna have one-to-ones with me cause im not really good at that stuff haha but if you wanna do it...let me know hahaha
WINTERBALL!! (bad transition) haha i bought my ticket(s)! hahah for AC too. buy yours!!
gosh i need itunes money. hahah. i have so many albums i wanna buy but there are no physical copies at best buy or something.
its been 23432 days since i've been a homebody. haha jk. over reacting. but you know i'm getting used to it kinda. when i wake up i think to myself, what am i doing today? haha im running out of things to do. or thats what i think. but of course there's so many things to do. right? haha
i've never seen so many movies in a week. i think my favorite was "meet the robinsons" it was an aww-cute feel good movie haha. next is probably iron man. i watched it by myself haha
anyways, i dont remember the last time i blogged and what i wrote about. i just feel bad for this xanga you know? i feel like its not being used. i probably blogged on here like..4 times this whole year. how sad is that? whats gonna happen next year?! ah xanga. you're my history. but idk whats gonna happen in the future.
i need to write more about my life. but we'll see. anyways, i'm done. im not excited for next year cause that means school is coming. and man, i need to redeem myself from last quarter. the end.
merry christmas! (soon) but i doubt i'll blog on this that day haha
-j
ps. man i wanted to put "currently listening to: all get out" but it wasnt anywhere in the results haha lame
haha hello?! yea random update from me =) this might be a bit short cause I'm blogging on my itouch and it's not as fast as on my laptop you know haha
so here I am. awake. listenng to the rocket summer haha what's new. bryce is just an awesome guy. go to callitcaptivate.com to learn about his cool clothing line
so I don't remember the lasttime I blogged haha probably after spring quarter? yea I think...and then I never updated after that cause it was so busy. from cfc y conf to aleah and aires' wedding to singles conf to theresas debut to school to transitioning to.....alot of things haha to life!
so many things happened and man I regret not writing about it haha darn. it's ok there are always pictures to look at? haha idk if that can really make up for it. I wish I blogged more like quyen or julienne or kat or kim haha
ok well idk where to start haha conf? yea I miss it haha it was an honor to help out with visuals. can't believe I did that haha but whatver talents I have, gotta offer it up. preps were so busy and fun! oh I love my area haha and others do too haha it made me aww when people kept telling us they're having Seattle withdrawals is something haha it made me miss people even more when I saw their facebook statuses saying they wanna come back. I've never had conf withdrawals like this conf haha but aww I guess this conf was more intimate and everyone knew eveyone haha. everyone was just:..joyful haha oh I love my area and apparently so do other people haha oh I miss everyone.
ok so something unexpected happened during the summer. I got to go to sfc conf in ny haha funny and so random. thanks you to those who helped me go. I still have to pay cfc haha im getting there haha. so it was awesome to experience 2 confs in one summer. double message haha. I loved the workshops! I should go read my notes haha. thank you new jersey for the post conf fun!
a month later, we ended up hanging out with our out of state friends haha they came for theresas wedding..i mean, debut haha yes I guess she's that special haha jk people love her that much. we just hung out alot. went to the fair anddid fun stuff like go to the rocket summer show haha. I think this summer has been the best for me. and I usually don't rank my summers or years haha
but a couple days later, school happened. by far the worst quarter of my life! i started with biochem 440, microm 410, and microm 402. now i only have my microm classes. wah i never dropped a class ever until now. i was traumatized after haha i know i sound way emo about it but its never happened to me before? i'm not used to it i guess. but i'll try harder and better next time?! ahh i dont wanna waste anymore money...darn. boo. lame. i'll try to be more productive when it comes to school. i kind lacked motivation after that happened. and i just had an exam on friday, so i'm kinda no in the mood to read ahead. but i should. cause i'm behind. haha. but yeah, i know what to do now next quarter? i hope i learned my lesson.
anways, i should go. haha. just a quick update i guess haha just to let you know i'm alive. i'll try to update more? idk. i should. i feel like i only blogged like...2 blogs this whole year. how sad is that?! haha.
oh so jan. 24th is gonna be awesome haha. winterball! you're invited. haha more details later!
i think i need to have another long update blog-session haha. eek! when i have time =) i really should be sleeping now...i have to wake up in 6 hours ahh. i dont like my morning class bleh haha.
